things i'll never say
September 01, 2002@8:31 pm.
you know who's music i;ve lovin so much lately???? Avril Lavigne. She is so freakin awesome, and her lyrics so perfectly represent some of the things that are happening in my life. todays - avril lyrics - -
"Things I'll Never Say"
I�m tugging at my hair
I�m pulling at my clothes
I�m trying to keep my cool
I know it shows
I�m staring at my feet
My cheeks are turning red
I�m searching for the words inside my head
(Cause) I�m feeling nervous
Trying to be so perfect
Cause I know you�re worth it
You�re worth it
Yeah
If I could say what I want to say
I'd say I wanna blow you... away
Be with you every night
Am I squeezing you too tight
If I could say what I want to see
I want to see you go down
On one knee
Marry me today
Guess, I�m wishing my life away
With these things I�ll never say
It don�t do me any good
It�s just a waste of time
What use is it to you
What�s on my mind
If ain�t coming out
We�re not going anywhere
So why can�t I just tell you that I care
Cause) I�m feeling nervous
Trying to be so perfect
Cause I know you�re worth it
You�re worth it
Yeah
If I could say what I want to say
I'd say I wanna blow you... away
Be with you every night
Am I squeezing you too tight
If I could say what I want to see
I want to see you go down
On one knee
Marry me today
Guess, I�m wishing my life away
With these things I�ll never say
What�s wrong with my tongue
These words keep slipping away
I stutter, I stumble
Like I�ve got nothing to say
Cause I�m feeling nervous
Trying to be so perfect
Cause I know you�re worth it
You�re worth it
Yeah
Guess I�m wishing my life away with these things I�ll never say
If I could say what I want to say
I'd say I wanna blow you...away
Be with you every night
Am I squeezing you too tight
If I could say what I want to see
I want to see you go down
On one knee
Marry me today
Yes, I�m wishing my life away
With these things I�ll never say
These things I�ll never say
this is so me... i dont have the guts to say anything to him. Nothing is going to happen if i dont though. I know i need to say something and not just rely on my thought that he has to know, but how can i, i dont want to lose the friendship that i already have with him. everytime that i have said something i have been shot down, lets just name them, steven, bryan, zach all been friends and then i said something and it was never the same again. i just cant think of that happening i wouldnt be able to deal with all of my friends asking me about it, they all telling me how hott he is. like i dont already know. thats the other fear. what if someone gets the guts to go for it before me and i just blow my chances and screw myself over. ahh! i just cant deal with it.
ali